[Matsuoka Rin x Reader] Idiot (Part 1)

Keeping a secret is hard. Especially when your secret is as big as mine. As a girl that transferred to a Swimming School in Australia that was actually for boys, I had quite a big secret. My gender. No one was aware of me being a girl. My chest was quite flat anyway and I used bandages to make it disappear completely. I always wore a full body swimsuit, telling the others I'd get sick really easily. They all believed me since I was really thin and pale. I've always looked rather weak and no matter how long I stayed in the sun my skin would stay as pale as before. Back to the important stuff though. Keeping that secret was really hard. I had to shower after or before everyone else. I got dressed before all the other guys even arrived at the changing rooms and I lied about my name as well. I really wanted to go to this school after all. A lot of really good swimmers went here. I couldn't accept the fact that my gender would prevent me from going here. I even cut off my long hair to look more like a guy. Of course I still had a feminine figure but there were many other guys with a similar body. For example, this Nitori Ai. He was just as small as me and had quite the feminine face. Everyone accepted him. Me as well. Luck, I guess.

I was sitting on that comfy armchair inside of my room. Two beds, two closets, a table, two chairs and an armchair. I was sharing my room with Matsuoka Rin. He wasn't doing as good as the others but I could sense great potential. I was sure he'd become quite successful later on. Talking of the devil. The door was kicked open and he stepped in. Anger all over his face, his hair still slightly wet. He always wore this kind of expression when he lost against those other guys. Throwing himself on his bed I sighed, closed the book I had been reading and got up to close the door. “If you keep doing that you're going to destroy the door again. Seriously...” “SHUT UP!” I winced at how loud he was shouting. He really was unbearable when he was angry at himself. I shrugged and sat down on the armchair again, continuing to read. He had five other room mates before me. He got in a fight with all of them. They all tried to cheer him up and that always made him more angry. I never tried to cheer him up or anything. I guess that was why we got along quite well. We didn't talk much. I was the quiet time anyway. Concentrating on my book again the minutes passed and he got up again, sitting down on the table. “Bookworm. What are you reading this time?” He sighed and ran through his hair. “Shhh....” I didn't plan to start a conversation with him so I decided to ignore him. A serious glance toward him and his eyes widened slightly, I made him feel uncomfortable. How I loved the expression he made when something surprised him. I always liked his angry face, sad face, tired face. I guess I loved all of his expressions. Not like I was in love with him, hell no. Never! But still. He interested me. For the sake of being able to keep studying him I would keep quiet and not give him a reason to start a fight. He got up from the table and leaned down toward me. “What the hell? The Forbidden Fruit? What kind of title is this?” I sighed annoyed. Why was he even doing this? He never talked to me without a certain reason. This wasn't like him at all. “Jesus...If you insist...It's about two siblings that fell in love with each other and want to run away together. Each of them is engaged though so they kill their fiancées and eventually found a family. It's really...intense. You can burrow it if you want to...” He grabbed the book and threw it on the ground. “That's just sick. Siblings shouldn't have those kind of feelings for each other. That's just gross. Why are you even reading this girlish love story crap?” I sighed and got up to pick up my book. Before I could bend down he grabbed my shoulder and pushed me back. I stumbled and fell on the ground. “Ouch...Are you retarded? What the hell are you doing, Matsuoka? Seriously...” He had my book in his hands now and stared at me angered. “Don't you think you're making it pretty obvious? I mean...you were pretty good at hiding it so far but this? Everyone will find out...” My eyes widened. It couldn't be. “Wha- What are you talking about? Find out what?” He grinned. He obviously enjoyed this. “The fact that you're a girl. You didn't really believe you could hide that from me, did you? I'm not retarded.” I finally got up and shook my head, trying not to seem nervous. “I don't even know what you're talking about, Matsuoka. Stop talking nonsense. I'm not a girl.” After I finished that sentence he grabbed my arm and pulled me closer. Suddenly his hands were resting on my chest. “Oh really? Then it shouldn't bother you if I did this...” My cheeks flushed brightly. Why was he doing this? This was just mean. “I-...I don't know what you think you're doing but this isn't bothering me at all...” He shouldn't be able to feel anything through the hoodie I was wearing. “Then why is your face so red?” He forced me around so that my back was against his chest. His hands moved down my sides stopped at my hips. “The curves of a girl...Really now. I'm no idiot.” This was enough. I shoved him away and slapped him across his face. “I didn't allow you to touch me like this, Matsuoka! I don't know what you're talking about so shut up and give me my book back!” There it was again. He stared at me with utter shock. I didn't mean to slap him. It just somehow happened. My hand hurt. I really slapped him hard. “I-...I'm sorry!” I was preparing myself to get punched. With tightly shut eyes I stood there. “Tch...Pathetic. Don't apologize for fighting back, idiot. Howsoever...You do know that when I say you are sick you have to let yourself get checked, right?...They'll find out. They'll kick you out of here.” So he really was serious about this. How did he find out though? How and when? I sighed and let dropped down on the armchair again. I felt like crying. I didn't want to leave this place. “Don't do this, Matsuoka. I haven't done anything to you to deserve this. Why would you do something like this?” Probably I could convince him to stay quiet like this. Maybe I could bring him to pity me or something like this. “Shut up. The fact you lied to me in the first place is reason enough. You also slapped me. Don't you think I've got enough reason to dislike you?” Maybe he did. I felt bad for slapping him but lying to him couldn't be helped. I had been sure he'd tell everyone about it or use it against me somehow. “Calm down. I'm not gonna tell anyone-....” I looked up. “Really? You're not?! Thank you!” And then it came. “....as long as you do what I tell you to do.” My head dropped and I let out a long sigh. I should have seen this coming. “You...Alright. If this means I can stay here I will bear with it.” He grinned and the my book on his bed. “From now on you will do all of my work. You'll clean our room by yourself, you'll do my homework and you'll do my laundry as well.” I nodded and ran through my hair. “Alright. If that's all I-” He laughed loudly and shook his head. “You'll also Matsuoka-sama from now on. Even when others are around. I don't care.” I nodded again, angrily accepting it. He seemed bothered by the fact I didn't protest. I was pretty sure he did all of this because he was frustrated about him being under the average when it came to swimming. He wanted to show off how strong he was or...something like this. Men problems. I didn't want him to come up with any more stupid things I had to do so I decided to use the only thing I could fight with against him. I placed my arms in front of my chest as if to protect me, gave him a sad gaze and sighed. “Please don't give me any more tasks, Matsuoka-sama. I don't know if I can do all of these things...” I said this with a voice sweeter than honey. When I looked up to him again I had to suppress a smile. It worked. He had stepped back, speechlessly standing there. “O-Okay. I guess this would be all. I can't ask any more of you. You're just a girl after all...” So in the end I was the one who had the upper hand. “Thank you, Matsuoka-sama...” My voice still as sweet as before. I gave him a happy smile. “Yes...” He shook his head as if to clear his mind. “You haven't told me your real name yet...” I nodded just slightly. “Oh...My name is ____.” Rin nodded and settled back down on his bed, laying down on it shortly after. “So are you going to give me my book ba-” He gave me an annoyed glare and I sighed. I was somehow glad he had returned to his usual self though. Everything I heard from him was a welcoming. “Shut up, Idiot.”